Ministry: Too Busy for Jesus?

It’s been almost 1 year since I stepped out into full time music ministry, wow! where does the time go? I gotta say it looks nothing like I thought it would. In a years time I’ve gotten to be a part of some amazing events, meet some incredible people and see God move in unmistakable ways. As a custodian I had these dreams/preconceptions that full time music ministry was gonna be ideal for creativity and relationships. I thought with all the spare time I was gonna have I would "get some things done!" It’s been a learning process. I’ve learned that I can stay busy and busy is not always good nor do I think busy is necessarily what God intended. If it’s all about relationships then busy is the opposite of what I believe God wants. I’ve missed it a few times in the past year. Trading personal relationships for a full calendar and then feeling empty when it’s all said and done. Now that I’ve typed it out and come to that realization the time has come to do something about it. Busy in not good for relationships, especially the one with my heavenly father. I mean it’s almost ridiculous to read as I type and I think, "How did I miss it?" Think about that, how can someone set out into full time ministry and spend LESS time with the God they claim to serve? I can’t answer that question but I am guilty, guilty, guilty! I don’t know how it happens but all I can point to is a ridiculously full calendar of social events, meetings and gigs that have edged God out a little bit. I talked with a friend recently and he used a word that has echoed in my head over and over again, "Intentional". I hope it doesn’t get picked up by all the latest Christian speakers and shoved in the same sentence with committees, conversions, doctrine, corporate and all those other words that seem to have little to do with Jesus. Intentional, I have to clear out time, intentionally to spend with Jesus because full time Christian ministry has helped me push him to the side. I wanna encourage anyone today who might feel overwhelmed. Jesus said that HIS yoke is easy and HIS burden is light. I think I may have picked up the wrong yoke. Lord, HELP me!