Disaster or Design

So, there's a pattern in my life that to most people, including myself, that makes my circumstances look like a complete train wreck. In these moments I try hard to not beat myself up or feel like a failure. These desperate times are usually the result of bad decisions made on my part and the circumstances are just simply the consequences of those decisions. Each time I would end up at my bottom I cry out to God for help. God always showed up and began to restore me rather quickly.  I could smile again, relationships would be restored and the desperate circumstance that got me to my low point would begin to fade. The pattern would show that as I got my life back I had less and less time for God.  So, recently I've come to that place again and God is restoring me slowly but surely.  God is using what looked like disaster to draw me close to him again. Is this God's will for my life? To be continued....